Tonight was the second congregational meeting since Pastor Roger Poupart resigned back in Feb. It was a pretty typical meeting. Staff and board shared some prepared comments, the congregation asked a few questions, after 80 some minutes we all went home.
I haven't done a whole lot of serious thinking for quite a while. I keep breathing each day and don't look to far into the future. I found myself continuing to read this book by John Maxwell about success and determining what course one should take in life. I really found it a hard book to read this weekend. There wasn't exactly any new information, or ideas, in the book I didn't already know. What made the reading difficult was being confronted with all those ideas at once. Applying those truths to my life was depressing. Or should I say... still depressing.
I know it is true when he said that our journey through life will happen whether we plan for it or now. Either we can be apart of picking which path in life we will journey on... or it will be picked for us. If anything over the last 5 years or so of my life is apparent... I've not been making decisions in this life journey of mine.
I got off my chosen path when I stopped by studies in seminary. WHile I strongly believe God opened the doors to the position at the church I've occupied over the last 10 years... I'm not sure whether or not my future will alway remain at First Federated Church.
I'm in this really tough position at church. I'm more than a member of the support staff, I'm technically part of the pastoral staff. But my role in the church isn't really known or understood by many in the congregation.
I don't think it was really intentional; however, you can look at the church's website and find information about the senior pastor position at the church. Every position on senior level staff was listed except my own. I don't know why it bothers me; it just does.
Last week I was asked what my role at church was. I really didn't know of a good answer to that question. I think Joe Lightfoot knows what my role on staff is more than anyone else I currently know; however, beyond him many people place limitations on how see me. I think a big reason for that is my current job description and for the length of time most of the people at church have known me.
Over the last few months I've thought about becoming ordained by the church. Perhaps that would be the next logical step in my journey in life. Joe seems to think it would open up some additional possibilities for me at the church. I think it will open up opportunities beyond the church as well.
I really have been coasting through life since getting married in 1999. I don't blame Jayne for that; it has been my decision. Now after having two boys to look after... it is really tough not getting caught up with just plugging along in the place I currently find myself in.
The days of this life seem to go by so quickly. Since Roger's resignation things have been looking better for me; however, I'm not sure how long that will last.
Somehow I need to get myself beyond the role of day to day task fulfillment and back to leading again. Somehow I need to reach out and trust others to help me around the church.
I need to go now. My wife just came to bed so good night.
After a twelve hour day I'm sitting here wondering where the day went. Wednesdays are typically busy; however, today was kindda weird. I was able to spend a few minutes with the family. They stopped by for a Summer Family Fun night we had at church tonight. Even though the boys are a bit too young to enjoy outdoor games, they had fun being outside.
I worked on expanding the church drawing in the CAD today. We needed to create a map for an upcoming activity that is happening outside. So, I took the ol blueprints and started to add sidewalks, parking lots, and streets to the drawing we've been updating over the years. The nice thing about drawing in a CAD program is the flexibility in keeping it up-to-date and drawing it life sized.
This weekend I'll be providing some media support for a home school conference. The work will keep me busy, but it won't be overly difficult. I'm mainly there in case something happens to keep things running smoothly.
In the coming week I've also got get some proposals put together to implement some new software modules we use. I'm not used to journaling much anymore, so I better quit before I fall alseep.